Making Love to Inks and Fibers

I've now finished printing three images for final review in a couple of days. During the course of making the images I tend to forget how much I enjoy printing on the Epson 9800. 

As nerve wrecking as I find the process of soft proofing and testing, always aiming for a level of perfection, hoping that what comes out translates everything put in, I fall in love with every print that comes out, one step closer to its predetermined life as a precious object of own creation.  Not all prints engage on such a level, some become a verification of a pre-existing feeling of lacking in quality, or a statement of changes that need to be made. Numbers translated into an image on a screen tell many lies that can only be seen when rendered on paper, and depending on which paper they're printed on, they will have different qualities. 

 The Hahnemuhle Photo Rag Pearl is a beautiful paper. It's a very thick with some texture and a slight warm tone to it. The dark tones came out quite nicely with a hint to future shoots to light certain areas with concern to printing. I also realized the importance of color in regards to putting the final series together. As of now it is hard to see how exactly I'll fit the yellow-brown skeletons with the bright pink and greens of the bunnies. I'm sure there is a bridge in there somewhere yet to be found, but am also keeping in mind that not all images will end up in the final series.

The paper upholds the luminosity surprisingly well.  I didn't expect the images to 'pop' out as much as they do. They look amazing, if I may say so myself. The darkness of the images didn't make them look as flat as I feared they would once printed, but rather encapsulates them in an air of mystery, and to me, further enhances the sense of seeing an 'other' place. 

The final three images so far are 40 cm wide including five cm black borders on each side with various heights. The black borders compliment the darkness of the images and bring them together as a whole. The wide borders serve to create a certain distance between the world within the image and the world outside.

Further, I have decided, due to lack of time, to hold off on purchasing wallpaper for the background. I've had a quick look, but have yet to find one that hits the spot. Again there is no point settling for less, so as of now I have only purchased three sheets of black paper with a black, velvet-like pattern to simulate the kind of look I'm after. If this will look remotely like I want it to is yet to be found out. 

For hanging, since the prints for this review will not be mounted, I've decided to cut strips of acetate paper and tape them to the back of the prints to pin in. This way I'll avoid annoying pin marks in the prints later. Due to the thickness of the paper they have already got a few dents from printing and trimming, so I'll need to keep them as clean and safe as possible. 

These are not pictures. These are photographic dreamscapes, precious objects carefully crafted to reflect the borderland from which they came. They are not snapped or stolen, and their roles are not as decisive moments. These images are dreamed, staged, captured, controlled and created.  They are my imaginary visions, pieces of an unknown 'home', and they can only continue to exist through photographs. 

 

The photographs offer a key to the magic of imagination, the universal dream of liberation from the constraints of the physical body into the uncanny.     -K.A Edwards

I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness*

This is another of the images from the last shoot. The main compositional elements are working well, but there are issues in the lighting/painting I would like to further resolve, as well as some changes to poses and costumes. 

I don't mind that all the characters are of a less 'absurd' nature, but would like to tie one in as the cleaner in the background to maintain some elements from previous images. His bright, white mask is an issue as it becomes a very obvious focal point within the image, and his character is not as innocent as he seems.  At this point I am leaning towards making him a skeleton yet keeping him more or less as he is. The effect of the vacuum hose is a keeper, as well is his direct communication with us.

 

The character on the ground is pretty much perfect. He reminds me of something out of a Caravaggio, and I am never quite sure whether he is getting up or falling down. In this section of the image I would like more shadows and contrasts around the walnuts, they are just a little too flat as is. 

I love the character of the cheeky, not-so-desperate housewife. Unfortunately the very long exposure time left her looking a lot softer than her attitude (and my will) dictates. It's basically just about 'freezing' her (which is a lot harder than you might think  considering the light is painted on), but when we set this up again I want to make better use of her as whole. Costume, pose, cigarette, drink, clothes draped and hanging around her, the whole shebang. 

Another thing to consider would be to include the sky above them. 

Indeed. 

*name of Austin band we listened to that night. Fantastic name for a band, fantastic name for anything. 

Dream troopers

Another venture into the creative and imaginary kingdom a few days back. It was another ride in the hands of fate, or luck (or lack thereof) on the coldest of nights so far. Despite the freezing cold, raw air and wet ground we set out to find the rabbit hole.

 About three test shots into it my main light source fails. It does not sink into a 'I-have-no-power' sleep, but dies abruptly as things are starting to shape up.

For various reasons the other lights were not suitable under the circumstances. In a bleak hope of finding a similar one hiding in one of my boxes of magic, we returned home from location cold and bewildered. Alas no such light was found, but refusing to abandon the shoot without trying alternatives, we opened another bottle of red and slipped into the dark corners of the courtyard.

 For a night determined to be a royal pain in the rear end region of my body, it won the initial battle, but lost the war. My creative group of nocturnal creatures now counts another amazing being. These people continue to astonish and inspire me with their enthusiasm and invaluable input. I have never photographed anyone before who had such an interest and understanding of what I am trying to accomplish as these people do. They are keys to locks in my house, to toys in my basement.

 The images require a re-shoot mainly due to light, but the ideas and compositions were good, and will result in a more dynamic visual range once resolved. In other words, we accomplished what I was aiming to test in regards to that. All was indeed not lost. I like the images, but know that I can re-stage and re-light them so much better. I do not believe in settling for less. It is worth the wait to make them rise to their full potential. It constitutes what I, in regards to such things, like to call a luxury problem. :)

Another couple of characters emerged and future shoots are looking very promising. I am very happy with the journey so far and believe the final series will be everything I want it to be. I can't wait to continue once final assessment is over.

 In preparation for that I am now focusing on the final post-production on a couple of images, and will start printing the next few days. I will now be printing on the Hahnemuhle Photo Rag Pearl. This is a new paper to me, but it's supposed to have similar warm tones to the Crane Silver Rag. I am anxious to see how my blacks and overall dark tones transfer as well as how much luminosity is retained on paper. 

The test prints I did on Ilford Gold Fibre Silk looked promising, but I have decided to go up in size to approximately 30cm width + borders which is somewhat larger than the tests.  I am also considering abandoning the 'fuzzy' edges around the frame of the image. Where there are higher contrasts on the edge it's hard to get a smooth transition between light and dark tones.

As well as printing I am considering potential backgrounds for the images. I don't want them displayed on a white wall and the alternatives so far seem to be black or some kind of dark, patterned wallpaper. I would also like them to be mounted and hung out from the wall, but as of now, this is way over budget.    

(New images to come very soon... in post-production now.)

Borderline Obsessive Illusionist

      I'm obsessed by Art   

                                           –Nikos Pantazis

 

So am I to a point. I love Art, as the ultimate symbol of Imagination, of escapism and of creative thinking. Of experience, of feelings and profound beauty. I love how it does not discriminate aesthetics, it is everything and nothing, whatever you want it to be.  I love the way it consumes and  often becomes the very first and last thought of the day. Tickles, seduces, suffocates and releases.  It makes me think of Aristotle's theories of catharsis and hedone, the purging and release of emotions through the experience of art (which also applies to the act of creation for the artist).

 

We shall not cease from exploration,

 and the end of all our exploring

will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.

                            -T. S. Eliot

 

These days I find myself consumed with figuring out concepts of embodiment and the portrayal of the body in photography for an essay in the Art history subject The Body In Art and Thought: Deep Genealogies.

 How does staged photographic representation of the body convey ideas of identity/persona, sexuality and relationship to photographer/viewer?

 I find myself lost in the jungle of semiotics and I keep coming back to the conclusion that everything is borderland these days. Are we certain of anything in regards to what we see? Do we even know if the emotional response to an image is ours and not orchestrated by the artist?  Is it ever just one or the other?

 Do things exist the way we 'see' them or are we simply encoded to see them in certain ways?

 I came across the website Photoshop Disasters, or it's a blog really, and nerd that I am, found it most amusing. These advertisements are out there. You've probably seen one or more of them, but you, as I, have most likely not really noticed what was actually there. Our brains have become so accustomed to certain things that it is only by reflecting upon them, or having some things pointed out, they reveal another layer of 'truth'.  Advertising and Cinema being the prime examples, the Queen Bees of deceitful illusion.

Take a look at http://photoshopdisasters.blogspot.com/

Enjoy. 

Picking Minds When It Gets Scary

(artist statement from review 2)

         Down The Rabbit Hole 

 

The visible world is no longer a reality and the unseen world no longer a dream.

  – W.B. Yeats [1]

 

 I follow the rabbit into the dark. I go to a place that holds my deepest fears and desires. The theatre of the mind, where visual experience is created in a symphony of electrical impulses and chemical reactions, and everything is as real as it is imaginary. Suspended in this borderland of reality and fantasy, I create my dreamscapes. Ephemeral tales that can only continue to exist through photographs.

 Photography no longer only belongs in a world of reality. 'While analogue photography alludes to "having-been-there" digital photography questions if there ever was a "there" at all.'[2]  As such it is a portal to the imagination, to a place that knows no boundaries of logic and reason, where everything is as real as we want it to be.

 I cannot imagine a world without fantasy, a world with no escape and no need to believe in the fantastical and beautifully weird. I choose to indulge in the seduction of dreams and endless possibilities.

 

 Are you such a dreamer?

 

 ...thoughts on a work in progress...                                              

                                                                                  - Dida 

                

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[1] EWING, W.A (2006) Face The New Photographic Portrait, Thames and Hudson, New York, p. 214

[2] CHESS, S. (2003) Cyborg Children in Digital-Land, the Works of Simen Johan p.3

All Those Beautiful Shades of Grey

First drafts of the new images from a shoot I did on Friday. Still more editing to do, but it's all coming together. A few weeks before final review this semester and so far I feel as if I'm in a pretty good place (amongst my usual strange and scary) with it all.

It was another cold one, but slightly overcast and a good night for it. Again, a big Thank You to my lovely and amazingly patient models. Together we had a very productive and magical night spent traveling in the borderland of reality and fiction. And these are some of the initial results. 

I'm trying to bring out other characters besides just the bunnies, but as of now they are still the entry-point, or the guide into that other place. A couple of 'dragons' are in the making and things are still on the move. Final due date still not till late October or somewhere thereabouts. 

For final review this semester I'm gonna have one or two resolved images printed and, hopefully, a deeper clarity around them. Next steps will be to do the final editing and selection, and determine what size they need to be and start proofing and testing. 

I want to print on the large Epson 9800 so a decision about paper also needs to be made. So far I have done small tests on the Ilford Galerie Gold Fibre Silk  and that seems  to be working alright without struggling too much with color balance and luminosity. But my hope is that before I start final printing we will have gotten more Crane Silver Rag. 

I haven't tested more than four different papers so far, but I can see how one would become a slight paper-nerd. :) 

Still much more to do and strange places to go. 

Until next time...

Have Spacesuit. Will Travel

The First sketches of the other two images that came out of that saturday shoot a while back.  I like the movement and the poses in the bottom one and the light in the top one. Still many changes to be made, but ideas need time to become refined. 

btw, a thanks to norwegian band Motorpsycho for lyrics that make up most, but not all, of the headlines and excellent music to dream to

http://motorpsycho.fix.no/